The fear of going too far. You know that fear we face when our painting satisfies us and we hesitate to go further because it might ruin all the work done so far? It takes courage to paint, you certainly noticed that.
I do not feel that kind of fear when I’m doing digital painting. I simply save the file to any point and I can go back to a previous version as needed, but with oil paint, the fear resurfaces at full speed. Luckily, I learned to use it as a springboard or even to consider it as a friend. When the fear points its nose, it is the signal that I must go further. Yes, sometimes I screw up, but if I consider the findings and the skill gained by taking the risk of going too far and the small number of paintings going straight to the trash, it is better to thumb my nose to the fear and to go on with the painting.
Here are photos taken during the creating process of three cold wax and oil paintings on acrylic backgrounds textured with gel medium and marble powder.
Masonite panels were covered with 3 layers of gesso. Then I created a textured background by mixing a bit of gesso with acrylic gel and marble powder.
Then I covered the panels with blue acrylic paint in case I would scrape through all layers of the waxy paint later in the process.
Then it is time for cold wax medium and oil paint. In the following picture, a dark and a light-blue layer of paint has been applied.
Even more layers and texture…
The paintings were nice but I had the feeling that something was missing and that I could go further … I got the impulse to cover them with white and it was at that moment that the fear of going too far whispered to me that it was too risky. I did it anyway. I covered almost all the paintings of white and then scrape the waxy layers of paint. Here is an overview of the result…
I will show you the three paintings in detail in another blog post.
Please note that I’m taking a short break from the blog to shoot and prepare online painting lessons (in French, sorry). I shall be back on July 8th.
See you soon,