Have you ever noticed how difficult it is to go back to work out after taking a break? The longer the break, the more you have to fight against yourself to move and exercise. It looks like you have forgotten all the good you get from working out and you find a lot of “good” reasons to wait until the next day to start again.
With painting, the experience is similar. When you stop painting for a moment, whatever the reason, it becomes more and more difficult to start again. The days without painting are transformed, little by little, in weeks, even months. You end up so far away that it seems impossible to go back to it.
You go through a lot of emotions and uncomfortable sensations. You know how you love to paint and how it makes you feel good, but old insecurities, fears and resistance bubble up, and makes you move away even more.
A part of you miss’ painting and the other refuses to take action and find a lot of reasons to avoid doing it: no time, no inspiration, no space, no good art material, no skills, and more. Your level of anxiety soars and the situation seems more and more insurmountable. You have regrets, you feel guilty, you are anxious and another day has passed and still have done nothing to address the problem.
Getting Out of This
From experience, I can tell you that the best way to get out of this situation is simply … to paint! It is unnecessary to engage yourself in a painting session of several hours or to go for nothing less than a masterpiece when you go back to painting after a break. Taking action is enough to start the process of liberation. After all, we do not run a marathon suddenly if we have been physically inactive for weeks!
The first minutes, we must face barriers made from our negative thoughts and emotions accumulated, but if we persevere in a few minutes more, we quickly realize all that suffering was unnecessary.
“It takes much more energy (and time) to suffer emotionally and to torture ourselves mentally by thinking about how far we are from painting that it takes to get into action today and paint.”
I learned this lesson the hard way. I hope that sharing this will avoid you to live the same thing and that you will be able, if you may not avoid it, to go through it and go back to painting in a more serene way, without useless suffering.
Thanks for your visit and see you soon,